OMG!!

I think I need to take a breather. I haven't been able to post anything for quite some time. Blame it on me. I should be able to take some time out.
Anyway, job is still great, and how am i doing. I'm great too...

lol

No seriously, its not that funny. Its just that I have decided to be happy,find delight in everything around me. I'm working now. I'm loving the experience.The boss believes in me,asks for my opinion and has already given me my first major project. and NO she hasn't hit on me yet;-) ha ha ha.
( i might add that all this has happened within a period of 3weeks.
Anyway, as I was saying, life is good. I'm blessed.
Have been spending more time with the people who mean the most to me. I love it. Just appreciating them and me in our own way.
Another thing, I'm trying new things, which is totally AMAZING. well...some of it(LOL).Whoever said that laughter is the best medicine,sure was RIGHT.

Positive attitude, laughter, family and friends. Thats what I have!

I may be down...but I'm definately not out!!

The past two weeks have been the most horrible in quite a long while. Will definitely not go in to details but I have been in the deepest, darkest, coldest abyss, and thanking God that I' m sorta seeing a sliver of light coming through.
So, to all of you who were literally having a ball at my expense, I just want to remind you that Karma's a BIAATCH!! And she will get you where and when it hurts the most.
As for me, I'm great, slowly but surely coming up. Enjoying life with its little pleasures ( ok not very original but hey...its my blog;-) )
till later...SIONARA!!

No promises!

So after 10 months of not blogging...and after promising myself that i would,here I am, saying
1. MERRY CHRISTMAS- because Jesus was born on this day. ( forget what was happening at that time).
2. HAPPY NEW YEAR that is for those who enjoyed it. Either way, its happy because at least you crossed over to a new year.
3. HAPPY EASTER- He died for our sins and rose again, hope you repented!! ;-)
4. HAPPY LABOUR DAY, MADARAKA DAY- for those who are underpaid...tough luck man! get a new job. As for Madaraka day, no comment.
5. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to everyone who has had his or hers. hope you had a blast!!

I told myself no more promises about writing blogs, so when I will, I will...when I wont, I wont and just in case i dont,
6. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the guys who havent had theirs.
7. HAPPY MOI & KENYATTA DAY usually just a free day to get wasted! holla!!
8. HAPPY JAMUHURI DAY celebrate with your grandparents.
9. MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

by the way SCREW THIS!!!

what the hell??? after writing 10 months worth of a post, it just decides to lose itself. what in the workd was that.
just like that. i had just put the last fullstop and yah! poof! it vanished.and no it was not stima or anything like that.
by the way im not even re writing it  again.
SCREW IT.

yaani i guess today was just a day of mikosi for me. coz first i lost a bet. second i broke my specs...i have to walk half blind for the next 2 weeks. the hell!!!
and and and, then this??!!
FUCKING SREW THIS!

My resolve!!!

Well as I look at my blog...or rather the lack of anything in it:-) ,Im not amused, so now I've made a resolve to be blogging everyday...hold up.isnt that what I said in the other post?
Yes actually i did,but this time im for real.Its for my own sake and not anyone else.
So yah, ama do this thing the right way.

Right now,im feeling kind of sad,actually preety low...coz someone just called me a fantasy gal...a freakin "fantasy girl"....was he right...i dont know...so why am i feeling hurt by that comment..i guess to some level he is right. Mark my words SOME LEVEL.
Im the kind of girl,who knows what she wants,but going for that thing/things is usually the tricky part for me...is it that im shy?..lazy?...or just plain coward mixed with inferiority??
I guess i can be the only one to answer that part.But i wish that someone could answer that for me...give it to me as it is, and then do what?? Move from there.but u see...i already know the answer to that its just that i wont admit it to myself.A SAD revelation indeed.:-(
Anyway this is also my second resolve,to go after what i want with confidence and surety and ohh...how could i forget to say this ...doing something without already seeing the end of it.

*slight digression*
(My BIGGEST problem is seeing the end or rather the destruction of something,before it has even started e.g. at work, me getting a big assigment, i already see myself failing it before even attempting it.
Again I ask, Is this a feeling of inferiority???)

If I can be able to overcome the above, then I guess im on the way to a better me!!!

You definately know who your true friends are when you are in need. Over the past week I had a chance of finding out who mine are.
Am/Was I in a fix? no...well kinda...I needed some help from friends of mine for something/somewhere I was going( if i say what it is then i will be busted). So anyway I was going round with the moto "hook me up with...my guy!" and so the pple that I thought will help looked at me with the...........................

my god!!!! I never got the chance to finish this post...but anyway....let it just hang like that.
To say the least...I never got the chance to go where I had intended :-(